Day 04

Day 04-a habit I wish I didn’t have.
I am my own worse critic. There are so many habits I have that I don’t like. I tend to talk a lot, I bite my nails, I chew the inside of my cheek, I stare off into space when I should be paying attention. But I think my worst habit would be the fact that I am often devoid of emotion. I don’t cry at funerals. When I am served information I don’t want to deal with I shut down…I speak in monotone and brush it off. I don’t seem to have the ‘typical’ girl emotions. For the most part, this works very well…especially given what I do for a living. However, it has been pointed out to me that it makes some people very uncomfortable. They don’t know how to deal with it.
I think I am ok with my lack of emotion…for the most part. But there are times when showing sadness would be appropriate, and I just can’t do it. This generally leads to me throwing something later in the day…and that is highly inappropriate. I find it very hard to just say ‘I am sad’.
Love, Esme