Truths Of Esme

This is a list in the making.  As it is such, it will continue to grow as I continue to learn.  Even I want to be able to look back and see my growth…

1. I am a proud firefighter/paramedic, and couldn’t imagine doing anything else!  But little known fact–I hate fire.  I break out in a cold sweat when I have to go into a burning building.  However, afterwards you can’t shut me up about how much fun it was.

2. I believe date #4 doesn’t exist, because I have never seen it.  I think it will be fantastically phenomenal, and fireworks will go off.  In fact, a national holiday should be claimed when I do make it there.

3. Even though I have a manly job, I am not gay.  Haven’t even considered it.  But I am not a man-hating feminist either.  I just have a job, and I do it well.

4. I truly believe that real men, as in ruggedly handsome can live off the earth but will still open doors for you men, don’t exist anymore.

5. I don’t believe in soul mates and one-true-loves.  I believe you can be happy with a number of people, if you are lucky enough to find one.  And I believe some people never find one.

6. I have an irrational fear of becoming a lonely blue-haired old woman with 20 cats.

7. Irrational because I am a dog person, and everyone knows dogs are better than men…so I wouldn’t be lonely.  And if I ever did have blue hair, it would look awesome on me.

8. I recently found out that my measurements are comparable to Marilyn Monroe’s…except I am 4 inches taller.  Yep, I have an hourglass figure.  While not sexy in today’s society, I LOVE IT.

9. Due to my marriage, and my dating history, I firmly believe men can’t tell the truth.  I also believe that because of this belief, I will sabotage a relationship with Mr. Right when he does finally come along.

10. One of the best decisions, although hardest decisions, I made was moving out-of-state.  I love it here.

11. I have had a great number of dates, a lot of which I have written about on here.  If nothing remotely interesting happens, I don’t write about it.  So far, I have been stood up 3 times, brushed off many times more (Stupid guys have no idea what they are missing)  But with all of the bad, I have had some good…well, decent…dates.  But the bad sometimes brings me down.  No one likes rejection.

12. Prior to Perfect, I have never been broken up with.  I tend to be proactive if things aren’t going well.

13. I am a huge, HUGE sports fan.  More than some guys, I think.  Hockey, football, baseball…yes please.  My favorite show is Sportscenter.  What constitutes a great date in Esme’s world?  Cold beer, big screen TVs, and a game or two.  Woot!

14. Actions mean more to me then words.  Anyone can talk, not everyone can actually do.

15. I absolutely love who I am.  I worked hard to be the person I have become, and I refuse to hide or change anything about myself.    Everything I have been through has made me an incredibly strong woman, and I am grateful for it.  As a friend once said-I am perfectly broken, and I don’t need anyone to fix me.

16. I know that I am an amazing person, and I have nooo problem telling anyone this-whether they want to hear it or not.  However, I still have a problem when a guy tells me how amazing I am.  I continue to think they have an ulterior motive, and they can’t be nice without wanting something in return.

17. I can go the rest of my life without my significant other (if I ever get one) telling me he loves me-as long as he shows me on a regular basis.  I don’t believe words.


2 Responses to “Truths Of Esme”

  1. thoughtsappear March 2, 2011 at 9:18 am #

    I think it’s really cool that you’re a firefighter and paramedic. Amazing!

    Also, I’m totally with on #14. Less talk, more action!

  2. lipstickandplaydates January 31, 2012 at 2:16 pm #

    Damn, those are profound. And your little tidbit about men lying….so true. Sadly, I, too, have come to believe guys can’t be honest. I am shocked and amazed at the things I’ve caught men lying about. I’ve had men look at me directly in the face and not flinch when giving me some b.s. story. Scary.

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