Well, he’s pissed.
I finally got a hold of him last night, and he yelled at me.
He was pissed I missed the wedding.
Never mind that my babysitter fell through two hours prior, and I could find no one else.
It is all my fault.
And now, I’m pissed.
I mean, REALLY?? He has kids of his own. He knows how this works. SHIT HAPPENS.
What am I supposed to do with his anger?
He has been giving me the silent treatment ever since.
My ex-husband used to give me the silent treatment before he would haul off and hit me. Does Loverboy know this? Yes he does. I have told him on several occasions that he, under no circumstances, can give me the silent treatment. I makes me flash back. It makes me cower on the floor and rock back and forth. It makes me insane. Literally.
I feel like if a man has any love or respect for you what-so-ever, he will not do something to you that causes these reactions. He would take into account what you have said, how you feel, and work accordingly. Why do I think that? Because I would do it for the man I love.
I made sure he always felt appreciated, always felt loved, and always felt like I would be faithful.
I am so tired of giving so much of myself, to not get it in return.
But the fact of the matter is…I just don’t know what to do.